This is the conclusion to my little “Scoring a Film” series, which I really have enjoyed. I’m not going to suggest that anything I’ve written so far (or will today) is particularly insightful, but I will tell you that it has been a great reflective experience for me personally, and has allowed me to look at the process I’ve been engrossed in in different ways, which is indescribably important. It’s easy to lose perspective and forget what you are doing when you are deep in a large-scale project such as this one. A step back is the best way to regain that lost perspective, keep your thinking and reasoning fresh, and take something away from the experience as a whole.
To get to my point, the film is finished! I delivered the final version of the score just about a week ago, and it will premiere later this week alongside two other (what I suspect will be) wonderful short films. I am extremely excited, and just a bit terrified, which of course goes with the territory. The excited part goes without saying, but the fear aspect at the end of the road isn’t something I had thought much about when starting this project, but it is very real, and seeded in a few different areas.
One area of my fear (or nervousness, let’s call it, that seems more appropriate I think) is technical. I am concerned with how my music and mix will translate to an unfamiliar audience on a sound system completely different from the one I worked on. If it doesn’t sound good, then all the good writing and taste in the world will be undermined, which would really suck. But an even larger anxiety is that the audience won’t think the writing and taste is any good, which would be crushing. I don’t think either of these scenarios will take place, not because I’m super cocky and think everything I do is gold, but because I worked very hard on it and had a great deal of trustworthy advice and criticism along the way to help make it good. Of course I have no way of knowing exactly how the evening and response of the film will go, but despite my inevitable nervousness, I am optimistic.
Now, since I mentioned the advice and criticism I received along the course of the project, I want to talk a bit more about that. I think this process of trial, critique, error, and correction that took place throughout the creation process was extremely helpful, especially given the point of the project. It is, after all, a student film. And I don’t say that in order to discredit or undermine the piece. On the contrary, I think it is a fantastic film of tremendous technical and creative caliber. I restate that it was a student film instead to remind that the point of it was learning. Now, I wasn’t a student for the project, I was a hired gun. But I got the added treat of the educational process throughout and I am extremely grateful for that (even though the critiques and changes were quite frustrating at times during the process.) Each week, my progress up to that point was put under scrutiny, and I was given notes of suggested changes and problems. I then did my best to address these comments and criticisms, then continue to move forward. The process was very back and forth, very elastic, and very open ended. I was afforded some room to experiment, then ultimately be shot down and forced to try it a different way. Such a process can sometimes be creatively stifling I’m sure, but that wasn’t the case here, in fact quite the opposite. It was organic, even amongst the occasional tedium.
The end result, I think, was a balanced, well-informed, and entertaining musical accompaniment to a strong piece of film. I am endlessly proud to have been a part of it. The processes and difficulties made me that much stronger of a composer and musician (an effect every project done correctly should have), and I walk away with a strengthened sense of timing, space, and drama. I hope my brief commentary on the process has been helpful, or at least entertaining in some way. I’m happy to be finished, and cannot wait to see all our hard work on the big screen with a room full of people I’m excited to share our vision with. Exciting times indeed!